Being means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree, which doesn?t force its sap, and stands confidently in the storms of spring, not afraid that afterward summer may not come. It does come. But it comes only to those who are patient, who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast. I learn it every day of my life, learn it with pain I am grateful for: patience is everything!
We are called to be fruitful - not successful, not productive, not accomplished. Success comes from strength, stress, and human effort. Fruitfulness comes from vulnerability and the admission of our own weakness. sometimes...i read lovely stuff. sometimes...not.
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There are many people who are sincere without being simple: they are ever afraid of being seen for what they are not; they are always musing over their words and thoughts and thinking about what they have done, in fear of having done or said too much. These people are sincere, but they are not simple: they are not at ease with others, and other people are not at ease with them. There is nothing easy about them, nothing free, spontaneous or natural. People who are imperfect, less regular, less masters of themselves, are more lovable. This is how people find them, and it is the same with God.

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A brother said to an old man, ?I do not know of any warfare in my heart.? The old man said to him, ?Then you are a building open on all four sides. Whatever wishes to, goes in and out, and you do not notice. If you had windows and a door, and shut them so as to bar certain thoughts, you would soon realize how many there are outside, waiting to slip in and attack you.?

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I know that life is a doorway to eternity, and yet my heart so often gets lost in petty anxieties. It forgets the great way home that lies before it. Unprepared, given over to childish trivialities, it could be taken by surprise when the great hour comes and find that, for the sake of piffling pleasures, the one great joy has been missed. I am aware of this, but my heart is not. It seems unteach- navigate around, why don't you?
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yeah, i did it.
posted on: 10/28/05
original post date: 10/28/05

Yeah, I went and got my cell phone encased in bling. I'm not going to apologize for it either. It looks good. It's very princess.

Pooh called me last night at around midnight because she was procrastinating her essay. We talked for two hours, and I felt guilty because she should have been working on her essay, but it was so nice to hear her voice and all the things she's been doing and I miss her so much.

I've been having crisis lately because it seems so absurd that I'm still in Vegas when I could be in Pittsburgh and there's really only this one thing holding me here now and yet here I am. And part of me is thinking it's inertia and it's easy. And part of me is thinking I need to stick it out. Who knows, but it's front and center right now.

Oh, also, have you signed up for Ma.gnolia yet?

Anyway, just checking in. I will be making phone calls this weekend. I will be you know, rocking it hard. As always.

And Candy is turning 25. And I'm taking an extra long Christmas vacation.

 
It's okay. I did that to my cell, too.
Jesus.
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