Being means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree, which doesn?t force its sap, and stands confidently in the storms of spring, not afraid that afterward summer may not come. It does come. But it comes only to those who are patient, who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast. I learn it every day of my life, learn it with pain I am grateful for: patience is everything!
We are called to be fruitful - not successful, not productive, not accomplished. Success comes from strength, stress, and human effort. Fruitfulness comes from vulnerability and the admission of our own weakness. sometimes...i read lovely stuff. sometimes...not.
So the thing is that I STILL need to book shop.
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If we do not bear the cross of the Master, we will have to bear the cross of the world, with all its earthly goods. Which cross have you taken up? Pause and consider. i would die without my iPodGavin Degraw (sp?) - "Chariot"
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There are many people who are sincere without being simple: they are ever afraid of being seen for what they are not; they are always musing over their words and thoughts and thinking about what they have done, in fear of having done or said too much. These people are sincere, but they are not simple: they are not at ease with others, and other people are not at ease with them. There is nothing easy about them, nothing free, spontaneous or natural. People who are imperfect, less regular, less masters of themselves, are more lovable. This is how people find them, and it is the same with God.

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A brother said to an old man, ?I do not know of any warfare in my heart.? The old man said to him, ?Then you are a building open on all four sides. Whatever wishes to, goes in and out, and you do not notice. If you had windows and a door, and shut them so as to bar certain thoughts, you would soon realize how many there are outside, waiting to slip in and attack you.?

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I know that life is a doorway to eternity, and yet my heart so often gets lost in petty anxieties. It forgets the great way home that lies before it. Unprepared, given over to childish trivialities, it could be taken by surprise when the great hour comes and find that, for the sake of piffling pleasures, the one great joy has been missed. I am aware of this, but my heart is not. It seems unteach- navigate around, why don't you?
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our favorite game
five conversations, four real
posted on: 10/19/05
original post date: 10/9/05

#1: With Simon
Me
Do you know what we drank yesterday? We drank light beer with orange juice. Pouncy called it a white trash mimosa, and it was shockingly good.

Simon
In the ghetto, we call that a brass monkey.

Me
Really? I never knew that.

Simon
You just gained street cred.

Me
Did I still gain street cred if I drank that at a TGI Fridays while eating cheesy potato skins?

#2: A one-way conversation with Pook over my voicemail

Pook
Tommy Maaaaadox. WTF? Tooooommmmy Maddooooox. I can't even....ughhhhhhh...arghhhhh....ughhhhh. What the hell? What the HELL? No Hines Ward. No Big Ben. Tommmmmyy Maaaadox. Ughhhhhhh...Noooooooo....Arghhhh.

#3: With CatWoman

CatWoman
Bo Bice signed on to do a sitcom. So there.

ME
That was Constantine, not Bo.

CatWoman
THEY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME THING.

#4: With an Unidentified Girl

Girl X
I'm coming out. Wanna go to Pure?

ME
Hell to the no. That place is a lockdown. You will not be able to get us anywhere near VIP.

Girl X
Hmmmm. Hmmmm. I bet I can.

Me
Call me once you're in VIP. I'll come meet you.

And she never called...because she spent the whole night having the Storm Troopers of Pure chase her away from VIP like she was a virus.

#4: With Hines Ward

Me
I Lurv You.

HW
Do you still love me when I can't play? When I'm sidelined for a whole game for the first time EVER?

Me
I love you more because I can look at the cute sideline shots of you in your adorable baseball hat.

HW
My team lost.

Me
Yes, but those of us who watch the game to see that moment when you give us special eye contact through the tv because you can tell how much we LURV you won. That's all that matters. Tell Tommy I'll see him back behind the clip board next week.

 
Do you understand that Hines Ward is not really your boyfriend?
I'm not sure which one of these is the fake conversation???
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