Being means: not numbering and counting, but ripening like a tree, which doesn?t force its sap, and stands confidently in the storms of spring, not afraid that afterward summer may not come. It does come. But it comes only to those who are patient, who are there as if eternity lay before them, so unconcernedly silent and vast. I learn it every day of my life, learn it with pain I am grateful for: patience is everything!
We are called to be fruitful - not successful, not productive, not accomplished. Success comes from strength, stress, and human effort. Fruitfulness comes from vulnerability and the admission of our own weakness. sometimes...i read lovely stuff. sometimes...not.
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There are many people who are sincere without being simple: they are ever afraid of being seen for what they are not; they are always musing over their words and thoughts and thinking about what they have done, in fear of having done or said too much. These people are sincere, but they are not simple: they are not at ease with others, and other people are not at ease with them. There is nothing easy about them, nothing free, spontaneous or natural. People who are imperfect, less regular, less masters of themselves, are more lovable. This is how people find them, and it is the same with God.

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A brother said to an old man, ?I do not know of any warfare in my heart.? The old man said to him, ?Then you are a building open on all four sides. Whatever wishes to, goes in and out, and you do not notice. If you had windows and a door, and shut them so as to bar certain thoughts, you would soon realize how many there are outside, waiting to slip in and attack you.?

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I know that life is a doorway to eternity, and yet my heart so often gets lost in petty anxieties. It forgets the great way home that lies before it. Unprepared, given over to childish trivialities, it could be taken by surprise when the great hour comes and find that, for the sake of piffling pleasures, the one great joy has been missed. I am aware of this, but my heart is not. It seems unteach- navigate around, why don't you?
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I am a drunken whore
actually, just drunk, but the above is a better title  
posted on: 7/27/05
original post date: 7/25/05

What is absolutely without a question most awesome about the pictures I'm posting below is that I got this email on the same day I got the pictures:

"<insert name of boy> was hanging out with me and saw me viewing your blog. I showed him pics of the desert and then you at K-Yo's wedding so he could see who you are.

We had just got done having a conversation about my
16-year-old sister V who looks nothing like me
and doesn't know me. V is half Asian.

Somehow he decided you were V because, 'even
though she doesn't look Asian, she definitely looks
16.'"

Right ON! So to all you boys out there who think I look sixteen, I believe you are about to *really* enjoy the following drunken pictures. Ladies, don't worry. There's some eye candy in there for you , too.

This is what we all looked like when we were just some cute girls in some dorky matching t-shirts. Before booze. Long before booze. Except that I had already had a bottle of wine, and I probably wasn't the only one. But this is a close as we get to a sober, sweet girls shot for the evening.
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts

All I remember about this man is the following: "I had a bunch of shots on Thursday night and the next thing I knew I woke up in the hospital with this cut on my face. I have no idea what happened in between." C-reep-y.
you really seem like the kind of girl who likes it up the ass

Oh. Right. I also remember this about that man.
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts

I have no idea on EARTH what I was doing licking Shadalan's breasts or how that even started. I only remember that they were large and satisfying.
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts

So, though I have no memory of laying around with my stuff hanging out, upon seeing this photo, the comment about my being the kind of girl who liked it up the ass suddenly made much more sense. And also, WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME MY ASS WAS HANGING OUT RATHER THAN INSTEAD TAKE PHOTOS OF IT??????
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts

Ladies - I give you this. I mean, my God. Is that even fair to do to women?
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts

And finally, quite simply, the most illustrative drunken photo of my ever taken.
pretty girls in dorky matching shirts
No. You actually are a drunken whore.
OMG. He is the most breathtaking man EVER.
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