Hedging Your Bets
And also some catch up...

Did you listen to the Pat O'brien sex tapes? Is it wrong that I found them kind of hot? I mean, to be clear, I do not find Pat O'brien hot, but the idea of the not-so-hot Pat O'brien being that dirty? That was hot.

I'm going to visit G-Man of Playsure at the start of school this year. We have already started a list of things to do while I'm there. That list includes a boxing lesson, a modern dance lesson if G can remember any of the moves, Bloody Mary's and "Miracle", bar crawling with specific mockery goals at each location and bike riding. And we've only been working on this list for, like, one pass, and the trip isn't for three or so months. It's kinda like the thing that's getting me excited about fall. Not kinda like. Is.

My mother got a camera phone. So much is wrong with this on so many levels. Firstly, it's wrong that my mother has a nicer phone than I do. But also, what is my mom going to do with a camera phone?

Overture -- go straight to hell. Seriously.

I keep thinking I'll have something of interest to write about soon, thus I don't write, you know, waiting for the thing of interest to happen. Not so much though.

I'm constantly tired these days. I think I may not be eating enough. Go figure.

I can't get past this stupid battle sequence in Prince of Persia. I'm tempted to just not finish the game, but I have too much ocd for that.

I've been pondering the concept of hedging bets in relationships, which is actually a phrase somebody used the other day, and I was thinking that we all do it probably more than we admit to. In the case of the discussion that was being had, the issue was about the person who was "hedging" keeping an inappropriate dialogue going with an ex-girlfriend. But the reality is most people hedge their relationships. I mean, perhaps your hedge is like my hedge, "Well, if this doesn't work out I can always adopt a little Thai baby and travel the world with it for a few years." That's a hedge. It's saying "I believe the chances of this working out are so slim that I have a backup plan in my head that I'd be totally comfortable with." Is that more or less offensive than hedging your bet with inappropriate dialogue? I'm not sure, but I felt like a hypocrit after I gave my friend an earful about his hedging and then realized that I'm really doing the same thing in my relationship.

I did a lot of self-evaluation after the grand split, as I've taken to calling it, and realized that I need to do more self-evaluation on a regular basis, which should scare you if you know me and my current level of self-evaluation. But I think that when in relationships I start to feel like I'm not growing and thus hold off on the self-evaluation. And there are really two problems there, aren't there? I don't know, except that in all honesty, right now I'm dating somebody who self-evaluates even more than, well, anybody I've ever known, so that's somewhat helpful. To me. But still.

See, there really was something to talk about.